Remembering Robin, Trying Again |
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We lost our first child to a second trimester miscarriage in March 2011. On the day we expected to find out whether our baby was going to be a boy or girl, we instead were told that she no longer had a heartbeat. In the aftermath of our grief, we decided that we will try again. And our future children will know about their sister, Robin Lynn, and how much she changed our lives in her too short existence.  |
My name is Mandi and I'm a housewife, although I'll be the first to admit I'm no June Cleaver. I'm more Peg Bundy. When we decided to try to conceive again, it only took one cycle for things to stick.This website will document the joyous and difficult journey we've made and the confusing and determined times to come. My devoted husband is Mike, he supervises the banking corporation of the local casino (not all California casinos are owned by Indians, card houses are required by California law to use an outside banker). We were married on November 2, 2009, and had been together for five years prior to that. We bought our first home in 2010 and live with our two dogs, two cats, two hamsters, two fish, and one toad. I am a bleeding heart for animals and thankfully he is kind enough to indulge me. We desire a child to add to this menagerie to love and teach love for all life. We found out about our first pregnancy on Christmas day 2010. I made Mike go to the store to get another pregnancy test to make sure. We only told our parents and siblings that day, and waited until after my first doctor appointment to tell the rest of our family. It will probably always be the most memorable Christmas. From our second appointment on, we got to hear our baby's heart beat. So when the time rolled around for the second trimester sonogram, it never occurred to us that we would never be hearing it again. Our world came to a stand still when the doctor told us the news. I was admitted to the hospital that night to induce labor, and at eleven in the morning the next day my body released Robin. Mike was able to hold her and I was able to touch her perfect hands and feet. Her ashes are now with us in a private space in our home. Any following children the universe might give us are not replacements for our first baby and they will always know about their sister. She will always be a part of our family. Should anyone wish to contact me regarding pregnancy loss, trying again after a loss, or anything contained within this site, please meail me at : Mrs.AmandaHill2009@gmail.com I can refer you to an excellent "pen pal" type program that prepared me to face the unknown again. |
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