I've never been good at waiting for anything. I open presents early and I don't like arriving somewhere too early to just sit around and wait. But now, this is the worst type of waiting game. To find out if I'm pregnant or not. I went to Borders' closeout sale and there a few interesting pregnancy books that I picked up. I still have all the ones I bought when I was pregnant with Robin, but there were a few that caught my eye like Pregnancy Dos & Don'ts (Elisabeth Aron, M.D.), A Green Guide to Your Natural Pregnancy and Birth (Clair Gillman) and The Complete Book of Breastfeeding (Sally Wendkos, Laura Marks, M.D. & Marvin S. Eiger, M.D.). The first two are to calm my obsession with not wanting to do anything wrong this time and the last one is because I've always sworn I would breast feed and since I WILL be having a baby (affirmative thinking), I'll feel better having a little theory under my belt. I know nothing beats practice, but again, this is all for my peace of mind. It give me something to do while I wait for the opportunity to see that magic little line on that peice of plastic. I freakin' hate waiting! And I know I'm going to be devastated if I'm not pregnant. It never fails, I do everything possible to not get my hopes up and even when I think I've got it under control, if things don't work out, my world comes crashing down and it takes me forever to get back on my feet. So I know I'm in a very slippery place right now.