For the past few days, I've been having some cramping and constant lower back pain and once in a while I get a light brown discharge. I didn't tell Mike until last night because I didn't want him to worry. I called the doctor's office this morning and the nurse said that if the symptoms persisted, I should go to the hospital to be monitored. I know it's stupid, but I don't feel like doing that yet. When I first woke up, the pain had actually gone away and I felt fine. Now I have cramping on m...

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I don't know what happened to me in the past five or so years, but I've become a real girl. But I've not quite grown up. So it's not at all unusual that I DVR'ed The Princess Diaries movies. I actually just finished reading the books, so I wanted to see what artsy liberties Disney had taken with the movies (turns out, more than a lot). But there is a line that struck a chord with me, "Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something is more important than fear."

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I took a pregnancy test this morning, it was negative. I'm not completely down and out yet, though. I know it's still pretty early to tell, and the HCg levels might not be detectable yet. I was just feeling very antsy, and now I have something to tide me over and demands patience of me. If another one comes out negative, then I'll probably be in a very deep funk. But I won't mire in that puddle of self-pity until I really have a reason to.
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I've never been good at waiting for anything. I open presents early and I don't like arriving somewhere too early to just sit around and wait. But now, this is the worst type of waiting game. To find out if I'm pregnant or not. I went to Borders' closeout sale and there a few interesting pregnancy books that I picked up. I still have all the ones I bought when I was pregnant with Robin, but there were a few that caught my eye like Pregnancy Dos & Don'ts (Elisabeth Aron, M.D.), A Green Guide t...
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The fertility stick finally showed two double lines this morning. We've been "practicing" just in case I might have read something incorrectly. But I think this one is correct. Not to be too graphic but the coinciding discharge matches what the stick says. I'm pretty sure I've entered the fertile days before ovulation. Now I'm really feeling iffy. What if all the "practice" actually did more harm than good. Like his swimmers have been flowing too freely so they aren't as strong. Or what if I'...
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