I did so much in reorganizing the baby's room yesterday that I'm totally beat. I did more lifting than is probably good and my back is reminding me that I still have a lot more limitations than I'm used to. I've also been on pins and needles waiting for movement inside and it's deep sigh of relief when I feel it. The room is the same layout I wanted for Robin. I hung up the decorations I bought and cleared out some of the boxes we'd been storing in there. The crib mattress arrived today, it's...
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The fertility stick finally showed two double lines this morning. We've been "practicing" just in case I might have read something incorrectly. But I think this one is correct. Not to be too graphic but the coinciding discharge matches what the stick says. I'm pretty sure I've entered the fertile days before ovulation. Now I'm really feeling iffy. What if all the "practice" actually did more harm than good. Like his swimmers have been flowing too freely so they aren't as strong. Or what if I'...
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I've been taking my vitamins. I just had my prenatal check up and had some blood drawn. My work-up while I was in the hospital showed low Protein S levels. The doctor isn't sure if they were low because of the pregnancy of it's a constant thing, so she ordered a blood test. If it is a constant thing, we'll have to do something about clotting during the next pregnancy. I still want to know why Robin died, even though I know we'll never get an answer. I think I'm always going to feel like I fai...
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