The fertility stick finally showed two double lines this morning. We've been "practicing" just in case I might have read something incorrectly. But I think this one is correct. Not to be too graphic but the coinciding discharge matches what the stick says. I'm pretty sure I've entered the fertile days before ovulation. Now I'm really feeling iffy. What if all the "practice" actually did more harm than good. Like his swimmers have been flowing too freely so they aren't as strong. Or what if I'...
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I'm planning to start using an ovulation kit the day after tomorrow. I'm nervous as hell. I want it to be easy, but at the same time I'm freaking out about how I will handle being pregnant again. And then how will I feel if we don't get pregnant again right away? It's very confusing. I can feel a twinge of excitement that I'm keeping in check. I don't want to get my hopes up and fall deeper when the pregnancy test comes back negative.

I keep recalling this little boy that talked to Mike and I ...
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