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I am now past my due date(s). I feel nothing changing down there. Baby Bear is still moving around but there doesn't seem to be any exit strategy. Tomorrow we'll discuss induction at my OB appointment. I'm completely on the fence about it. I know it carries risks and part of me wants to just hurry up and have my baby in my arms but the other part tells me it's better to wait a little longer and enjoy still having the kicks and other movements all to myself before I have to share my baby with ...
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Still not dilated past a centimeter and last week I was 75% effaced and this week I'm 50%. Dr. Stone says it's likely we're going to go past the due date and we'll discuss how I feel about induction at next week's appointment. My cervical checks are still so painful! It's ridiculous, it's like my body is literally trying to close itself up. Makes me think an episiotomy is inevitable. So be it. I'm starting to get a little impatient, I really want Baby Bear on the outside, but at the same time...
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The idea hit me yesterday when I was laid up in bed (excruciating back and rib pain): I'm probably going to have to be induced. My body didn't recognize that Robin had died and it needed to let go. Why should we assume it's going to know how or when to release this baby? I had been worried that I wasn't going to recognize the beginning of labor, now I'm thinking that might not be a necessary fear. I'll just have to hang on a couple weeks past the due date until they decide it's time to make t...
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