The fertility stick finally showed two double lines this morning. We've been "practicing" just in case I might have read something incorrectly. But I think this one is correct. Not to be too graphic but the coinciding discharge matches what the stick says. I'm pretty sure I've entered the fertile days before ovulation. Now I'm really feeling iffy. What if all the "practice" actually did more harm than good. Like his swimmers have been flowing too freely so they aren't as strong. Or what if I'...
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Tomorrow I start peeing on sticks. I've never used an ovulation kit before. I've also started taking my temperature in the mornings, but I think I started doing that a little too late to really figure out my average.

I did a fertility ritual, I'm through with prayer although I know there's some that would argue that there isn't much difference. I feel that there is. Prayer feels like begging and I will not do that. I will not beg a god that took away the greatest gift I've received. I spent s...
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