My husband has been "suggesting" that we start telling more people. I know it's hard for him to deal with people at work about it but it's still too soon for me. If I had my way I'd not tell anybody until the baby's crying in my arms. But he thinks that's not a good a idea nor would it be possible. So after my last appoinment, I told him that after the new year we'll start telling a few more people. He has my friends working for him and I'd prefer they not know just yet. I know that makes it ...
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Yesterday was Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Everyone who has been affected by the loss of a baby is to light a candle at 7pm their local time to be a part of a wave of light going across the country. I know some people had a very difficult time yesterday. I didn't. There are more specific days that are painful to me. I felt like I wasn't alone yesterday, even though I technically was home all by myself. But I felt like I wasn't the only one lighting a candle and having a short mo...
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Tomorrow I start peeing on sticks. I've never used an ovulation kit before. I've also started taking my temperature in the mornings, but I think I started doing that a little too late to really figure out my average.

I did a fertility ritual, I'm through with prayer although I know there's some that would argue that there isn't much difference. I feel that there is. Prayer feels like begging and I will not do that. I will not beg a god that took away the greatest gift I've received. I spent s...
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