December 19, 2011
I started having strange feelings early this morning. Not emotions, but sensations in my abdomen. I was laying on my right side and I had this sensation that felt like stage fright, like a cross between a knot in the stomach and butterflies. But it ranged from my pelvic bone to just below my sternum so it makes me question whether or not I might have been feeling the baby move. I've had it twice more since then but it's been lower in it's location. I never got to feel Robin move so I still don't know what it's supposed to feel like. I'm hoping it's just the baby moving or indigestion or gas, and not that something is wrong. The anatomy scan isn't until next Thursday and I don't want to have the same bad news and the same type of appointment.
Posted by Amanda Hill. Posted In : Pregnancy
December 16, 2011
My husband has been "suggesting" that we start telling more people. I know it's hard for him to deal with people at work about it but it's still too soon for me. If I had my way I'd not tell anybody until the baby's crying in my arms. But he thinks that's not a good a idea nor would it be possible. So after my last appoinment, I told him that after the new year we'll start telling a few more people. He has my friends working for him and I'd prefer they not know just yet. I know that makes it ...
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Posted by Amanda Hill. Posted In : Spiritual
December 16, 2011
These pains are just something I'm going to have to live with, but I'm A-ok with it. Our baby is a bundle of movement with a very strong heart beat. I got a prescription for my migraines. Hopefully this is works as it's our last defense for them. But at this point I'll suffer through anything. Our anatomy scan is on December 22nd and I'm a bundle of nerves.
My doctor did a sonogram to give me peace of mind and she made a strong guess as to the baby's sex but the machine isn't the best quality...
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Posted by Amanda Hill. Posted In : Pregnancy
December 8, 2011
Just a quick update, I made an appointment for the 14th to go to the doctor to discuss my aches and pains. More than anything I just want to hear that heart beat. If I can hear that heart beat, it'll be easier to wait for the next sonogram on the 22nd. If I had to go two more weeks just floating along I think I'd become overly emotional and not know how to release it. At least now, I know I can actually see my doctor to discuss my intense concerns right now (and if they try to make me see the...
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Posted by Amanda Hill. Posted In : Pregnancy
December 7, 2011
At that critical point now. This is about the time Robin died so I'm on pins and needles and just about anything can send me into an anxiety attack or bursting into tears. I'm still having sharp jabs of pain that I'm hoping is only round ligament pain. Still, I'm going to call the doctor and set up an appointment to hear the heart beat and get a recommendation of what to do for the pain. I don't see a doctor until the 22nd, and that will be at the other office that does the ultrasounds for th...
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Posted by Amanda Hill. Posted In : Pregnancy
December 1, 2011
Another appointment, another heartbeat. This appointment was a little awkward since it wasn't my doctor. This Asian lady walks in and introduces herself as the practitioner and tells us my doctor is backed up. We talk a little about the pains I've been having (it's either round ligament or constipation) and then she gets out the doppler and picks up the heartbeat which is still going strong. I don't know what to make of it, this is almost where I was the last time, and then at my next appoint...
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November 24, 2011
For a few days my morning sickness decided to take a vacation. I wound up making myself seek out disgusting smells just so I could trigger a gag reflex to feel a little bit better that I was still pregnant. Today my nausea really beat me up, Mike brought me home donut holes and I told him that I would eat them later. I napped, then had lunch, then went about my day and when I got home there was a shredded bag on the couch. SO UPSET. I cried to the point of making myself throw up. I know it's ...
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Posted by Amanda Hill. Posted In : Pregnancy
November 10, 2011
I got new bands on my top braces and the wire was changed to a 14, whatever that means. I still don't have the bottom ones on. I thought they were going to do that today, but apparently that will be done at my next appointment at the end of December. It feels like I took a softball to the teeth. But I have noticed a change in my tooth alignment so I'm guessing it's going to be worth it in the end.
I got more blood drawn today as part of the NT screening. I go for the ultrasound tomorrow. I do...
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Posted by Amanda Hill. Posted In : Medical
November 5, 2011
Towards the end of October, my pelvic floor muscles suddenly lost control and I felt leaking. My doctor saw me and ran some tests and it was chalked up to a change in discharge. And the leaking feeling has since gone away. I was glad to get in there before my appointment on the first. The long wait in between appointments is really stressful. My appointment on the first also brought a little bit of joy, we got to hear the heartbeat for the first time. This baby is a mover and a shaker, a lot ...
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Posted by Amanda Hill. Posted In : Pregnancy
October 16, 2011
Yesterday was Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Everyone who has been affected by the loss of a baby is to light a candle at 7pm their local time to be a part of a wave of light going across the country. I know some people had a very difficult time yesterday. I didn't. There are more specific days that are painful to me. I felt like I wasn't alone yesterday, even though I technically was home all by myself. But I felt like I wasn't the only one lighting a candle and having a short mo...
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Posted by Amanda Hill. Posted In : Spiritual